I can sympathize on pushing people away for fear of them digging too deep, yet I have come to understand that sexuality is but one aspect of my personality. Though it's a difficult time for us now, you can still try to find someone and hope that they would be understanding that your mind is a bit different than theirs. Hopefully things will be easier in the future, as we become more public.

I once felt the same - it felt like I didn't have anyone to turn to. I strongly suggest you consider telling a non-zoo; doing so legitimately changed my life. Although I'm an exclusive zoo, I think it'd be worth your while to consider it. This doesn't need to be someone you are or will become intimate with, just a deeply trusted friend. Rather than withdrawing from relationships to prevent zoophilia coming to light, consider building a friendship with someone with the aim being to (eventually) tell them, if they are open-minded. If you know they will listen to you and your case, it is unlikely that they will respond badly.

I know it seems an impossible thing to do, but the first step is the hardest, and I guarantee you that there is nothing as relieving and uplifting as knowing that someone knows, but still accepts you. If you would like any tips or support, or just would like to talk, please do PM me. I'd love to help you in any way I can.

If you're asking why this may help you to find a human partner who accepts you, telling a second person is only half as difficult as the first, and so on. Relationships can thrive between you and the people you tell, and a friendship can easily go further when that sort of trust and brutal honesty is demonstrated.

Yeah, I can totally understand the digging too deep and pushing away part. You could either meet zoos and over time build relationships with those you like, perhaps make an apartment share with your best zoo buddy - or try more often with different opposite sex partners (as I guess that's what you want), introduce it as a joke early, see the reaction and then either move on or stay. Basically average Joe can be happy with average Jane most of the time. After a few months you really get used to each other, so it doesn't matter to always wait for perfect happenings to occur magically. Just up the trials a lot and trust that things will work out. A lot of people surprisingly are actually ok or at least tolerant with it in a one-to-one setting and after they know you well enough. Most of the time it is just group dynamics, isn't it? Or you learn to keep different parts of sexuality apart and find someone who can tolerate at least that you also sometimes have some "alonetime" with "things that interest you". Actually, the vast majority of couples have such arrangements. Not everybody likes everything etc etc etc. Except in the idiotic romantic picture of perfect relationships that is sold to us, these things, that you can just relax about if it doesn't fit 100% in everything, are never mentioned.

Honestly, I am very happy the way I am per se. What gives me a bit of a depression is how bloody hard it is to live the life I want with all the friction this added aspect is generating. I find it ludicrous for example every time when people say "oh, those guys take the easy route to some adultery" - sure, looking at my bills this is totally the easy route. What really gives me a depression is trying to interact with complicated people after knowing the ease of communication with my love interests. And then of course the usual stuff when it explodes on the internet and locally again, and you read the same idiotic whargarble over consent etc etc. But that is not directed at me personally, I learned to cope with that, too.

So basically, go meet some people, dip your toe a lot more often into the water and see, be careful. It'll be alright. Don't blame yourself.

I know it can easily feel like all the world's against you, but it's really not the case. They always she the most ignorant of the bunch are always the loudest. Plenty of people couldn't really care less (they might think it's a little strange, though.) I'll link you to this thread posted only a few days ago. This chick is not a zoophile, but completely pragmatic about it. As long as no one is being forced or hurt, she doesn't really care. This is the kind of person you should consider opening up to. And if they're out there, the chances of dating one aren't out of the question, either. You might not find someone as enthusiastic about it as you are, but you could certainly find someone who loves you just the way you are.

You'd be surprised how many people are into it. Most people who are into it won't openly admit they are into it! I have broached the subject with multiple partners, the ones who I could tell weren't into it, the relationship ended quickly thereafter as there was no point in pursuing a long term relation. Surprisingly, a majority of the women I've been with were open to the idea.

I have been active for 12 years and the first few years i felt deep guilt and depressed about it, thinking that i was all alone in the world with my thoughts and feeling about my attraction to my dog and that i could never share them with anyone. It took a few years to come to terms with this and i know now this is who i am and im am happy with who i am and dam any one who judges me for it if they can not accept me for who i am fine (its not like i tell the world). These subs are also a good place for your feelings down and to be heard it dose help to let it all out.

I was very depressed at times, I thought I was hideously broken as a person. This was after my canine partner had passed even and I didn't even have interest in another dog.

But the fact that I was longing for a partner and lover that I couldn't tell anyone about, a relationship that most people would completely lose their minds if they knew, a "disgusting," shameful secret I had to take to the grave with me... it ate at me big time, and of course as a young person hanging out with others my age, these things come up in weird late-night discussions, and the general attitude was reflected pretty accurately in this recent post. I would listen to jokes about people having sex with animals and fake a laugh and go "ewww" along with the others and then whether away into the shadows, having an anxiety attack.

I could go on and on about my identity crisis, my swings back and forth from pride in myself for being different, to abject shame for doing something to myself that would make me unacceptable by, as you say, "99.9" percent of the human population... but I'll cut to what changed my life.

Telling someone. I guess not the fact that I just told anyone, but I managed to set that part of my life aside long enough to connect to someone, and more importantly I let them in, I let that person get close to me also, and our conversations started drifting into those deeply personal places, and I learned that when someone cares about you, they tend to be a lot more accepting of things they may not have given much consideration to before.

I'm not saying it's assured that if you talk to someone it'll go over well, but more importantly, it might not be as bad as you think, and you'll never know until you give people a chance.

Also, there may indeed be a choice involved, of which life is more important to you. I think it's a painful truth about a lot of things, not just zoophilia or sexual orientation. Sometimes you can't have it all, but make sure you make the choice that is most important to you so you can appreciate what you do have.

You might need to talk to someone on a more professional level too, you shouldn't be in pain about your own life and needs, and don't think many of us here are qualified to set you on a path to being happy and fulfilled, everyone is so very different.

But I should say what others have said, it's not 99.9% of the population that would think you're a monster, only the really boring, narrow-minded, religious or stuck up people that zoo's probably wouldn't get very close to anyway ;)

I have a feeling that as an adventurous soul, you're going to attract like minds, minds that are probably more accepting of the unusual and unknown and willing to give consideration to different or unusual quirks. Don't let fear hold you back from knowing the lives of others, you might find you're not as far off the road as you think. Everyone has dark secrets.