Never thought I'd be posting in a place like this... I've recently come to accept and am just starting to be okay with the fact that I'm zoosexual. I realized that I was when I was a young teen, but felt a lot of shame and guilt about it- I still do, I guess, just because I think my partner would hate me if they ever knew.

A little about me: my companion dog, who was best friend and someone I also considered my lover, passed away last year. I'm also attracted to humans, but ever since they passed, my sex drive has completely vanished, as I'd ended up in a very awful depression and was unable to do even the most basic things. until I recently discovered these zoo subreddits. I've never actually watched any zoo porn before (I had no idea where to look), but now that I've found places to view it, I've realized that it's really the only thing I have an actual sexual or romantic desire for, and I just keep thinking about how much I miss having such a deep romantic connection to someone of an entirely different species.

I still feel guilty about all of it, though. And I acknowledge that I haven't a reason to, logically. I study ethology and train animals, I know that animals can and do consent to sexual encounters with humans, but I guess I've just internalized the stigma surrounding it. Anyway, I really hope that I find others to relate to in these communities.