So I have a sort of problem... (self.zoophilia)
submitted 2015-02-09 05:58:33 by [deleted]

So I posted this a couple days ago; I got told to make a post here to ask for advice.

I want to work with dolphins specifically, though taking care of any cetaceans would be a dream come true. Hold your opinions on aquariums as you will, that's for another place.

But so long as I have this attraction to animals, and virtually no good feelings for people, I'm screwed for getting this career.

Any advice? However you want to give it. The only thing I ask is that you don't try to convince me to give up my dream of working in an aquarium with these animals. I would literally rather kill myself than do that. Ask questions about that decision if you want, though.

Kynophile Dog Lover 4 points on 2015-02-09 07:00:25

I think the answer to this question depends on whether you're specifically attracted to dolphins or other sea mammals like them. I'm guessing that you are, or this question wouldn't matter so much, since going to bed with a dog or some other quadruped wouldn't really be in conflict with that. If your attraction to cetaceans is so all pervasive that it would interfere with your duties at an aquarium or sanctuary, however, dealing with that is similar to dealing with obsessive thoughts in OCD and similar disorders. Your instinct might be to shut these attractions out, but that doesn't work and might just lead to them strengthening. Instead, in that situation, allow yourself to have the sexual thought and move on. "Damn, that's sexy," etc.

Regarding your lack of good feelings for humans, that can be dealt with to an extent. It's hard, and you likely won't change your mind completely (for example, some zoos simply aren't physically attracted to humans at all), but you can at least get along well enough to survive. The key, I think, is forming positive relationships, whether in person or online (though in person works better, usually). In my case, for example, I've struggled with misanthropy and social anxiety for years, and am still antisocial to an extent, but I get out in the community and do things that I enjoy with others. That way, I can start relationships in a more practical sense (showing that I can help them somehow), and start to relax a bit with them. It becomes easier the more you do it, which unfortunately means that it's a bitch to get started at first.

Finally, regarding your fears of therapy and some watchlist or another, therapists aren't required to report anything that doesn't seem to make you a danger to yourself or others, and animals don't count as others for that purpose. I've told a few therapists about my attractions (struggled to find the right one for a while). And the responses I've received have all been neutral or positive, ranging from intellectual curiosity to an understanding of some spiritual connection with animals (that guy was a little odd...) to an admonition that if I'm not going to do any harm and I'm careful about it, it's perfectly OK. Hell, coming out to therapists has to some degree made me more confident about both this subject and life in general, because I didn't feel like I was hiding from the entire world any more. I'm not suggesting you run out with a bullhorn and tell your grandparents, the mayor, and your preacher (if you have one), but the world does not end from telling a therapist about it, and it may make you feel better for someone else to know. Even if you don't, you can always hang out here for support, since I don't think anyone who regularly posts here would look down on you for being cautious and never wanting to act on your desires with animals.

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Tundrovyy-Volk Canidae 3 points on 2015-02-09 07:06:30

I read your first comments on /r/zoophilia from your last post - I'm sorry you got the impression that we would try and convince you to do something that would be detrimental to your welfare. I hope we'll prove ourselves otherwise.

I can speak with some experience, seeing as I've worked with dogs. It may help you to remember that zoophilia is really nothing special; it is only an abnormally strong connection to an animal, and as such it need not be any more influential on your work life than if you were not a zoophile, or a platonic one. What's more, simply being with animals you find desirable, especially if you get to know them well, is extraordinarily rewarding and fulfilling, especially for individuals who don't have another outlet for their longing.

So, what do I suggest? Live your dream. The rest will fall into place. If I may, I'll add the obligatory warning against complacence: especially when it comes to animals in controlled environments, such as zoos and aquariums, you cannot afford to take sexual risks, no matter how tempting it can be. As you said in your confession thread, if you were ever to meet a wild dolphin, it'd be left to your best judgement.

Good luck.

~ T-V

[deleted] 2 points on 2015-02-09 18:20:06

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actuallynotazoophile ok, I lied. 2 points on 2015-02-09 19:41:08

Plus I thought I would be hated for mentioning that I am trying to suppress my thoughts.

quite the opposite in my experience. This is pretty a common experience amongst zoos so you'll get at least a few people who can sympathise with you and help you understand.

PonySmoocher Equines! 2 points on 2015-02-09 12:14:57

Why do you think you have 0% chance on that career, just because you are not a people person?

Use this to your advantage! Everything can be turned positive or negative. You are not a people person but a dolphin person? Good for you, because you spend even Friday night at the library to learn about dolphins. You can't tell other peoples' reaction really? Good for you to be a dolphin person - you (will) have learned to read and judge dolphin behaviour like nobody else. You couldn't do a dolphin show for the people there? Good for you, your show is more awesome like any other show, because you do a show with and for your dolphins.

Honestly, it's ok not to be the commonly and currently placated people-kissing person that volunteers at three shelters and has 10000 facebook friends. Half of all people are in fact introverts and currently simulate extrovertness. Become ruthless in fooling "them", in order to get to your dolphins, you will not stop. "Game the system" and "play the game" to get there, then tell humans to fuck off to the bleachers to watch the show.

;)

SweatySmellyHorse Ungulata and Carnivora 1 point on 2015-02-09 12:59:18

Dolphin training/handling is highly competitive. Training and handling large animals such as Horses/Mules/Deer is a MUST if you want to be competitive (other wise they will Throw your application in the trash). Take riding lessons, and progress from their (don't be afraid to switch places if you are not learning). And get a 4 yr zoology degree.

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[deleted] 1 point on 2015-02-09 19:29:30

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[deleted] 1 point on 2015-02-09 18:27:35

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SweatySmellyHorse Ungulata and Carnivora 1 point on 2015-02-09 19:55:47

Sent you a PM just now about funding for college, it has the potential to solve your money woes. Plus depending on terms of the load (always ask this upfront), the payback could be $0 a month if you don't have a high enough paying job when you graduate. Do not take my word for it, ask professors and graduate students and loan counselors. I'm judging your male, but their are even loans for people that have children, and need day care. I was a little harsh on saying you needed a zoology degree, but famous people like Jane Goodall studied chimps as a PhD student with only a 2 year business sectary degree (or no degree according to wikipedia). undergrad is completely different then grad school , more so then a dog vs a horse. Being a graduate student is like being in a club.

SweatySmellyHorse Ungulata and Carnivora 2 points on 2015-02-09 12:32:09

I'm sending you a PM, since I don't want to cause you or me future problems. But it "looks good". You can share it with the mods. Basically just about "shore" excursions on cruise ships.