Deleting my account (self.zoophilia)
submitted 2015-05-25 04:05:16 by [deleted]

I am not as active over here as I am at r/animalromance, but that subreddit didn't seem like the right place to leave a goodbye message.

This is definitely goodbye. I am deleting my "kennel_dweller" account permanently. I do not expect I will be returning to interact with zoophiles on the Internet. It was the erotica and the porn that brought me here in the first place. It remained my main motivation for posting in this and other subreddits, and it became such a huge obsession in my life that it eclipsed any affection for other people, or desire to accomplish something meaningful in life.

Sentences like that usually don't mean anything to me. That was what I always thought, with increasing contempt, until I started having suicidal urges last year. Yes, I have "the guilt", and no, I can't say for certain, with sound philosophical grounding, that zoophilia is intrinsically evil. What I can say is that, for me, I cannot continue exploring this part of me, because my life seems to have gone downhill ever since I started exploring four years ago.

Why do I bother leaving this message, then? Because you all are people and you deserve to know the truth. I don't know if anyone knows the truth about how people and animals interact. Nevertheless, I would ask you to consider, at least for a minute, the possibility that what we have been discussing on this subreddit is wrong. Not because PETA says so, but because there is objective truth and it's possible that we may have crossed the line between right and wrong.

Again, I don't know. The only thing I'm certain is that I have to cut this account out of my life, because in my particular circumstances, exploring my zoophilia has been nothing but harmful to my personal life.

I wish you the best.

FunFriendly 9 points on 2015-05-25 04:28:09

Thanks for suggesting I am somehow evil.

Don't let the door hit you on the way out.

actuallynotazoophile ok, I lied 6 points on 2015-05-25 04:47:37

Holy shit. Thanks for leaving a message instead of just vanishing, that would've made me sad. This still makes me sad but at least now we've got a bit of closure.

I loved your content man, your hearts in the right place. Youre not a zoo eh? Honestly, I'm a little bit envious, this isnt an easy life compared to being a humanphile. I'm just going to say, accepting being a zoo is a long and painful road with a lot of ups and downs (at least it was for me) but support is always there if and when you need it. This is a great little pocket of the internet and we're all here to support each other because we all know how painful it can be to go it alone.

Having something take over your life is never good so congrats on realizing that you have a problem and going about what you need to do to fix it. Good luck with whatever you have planned and I hope you can get your life back on track.

I will say one thing though, with all the evidence I've seen both online and IRL, that we are correct in our line of thinking. I will be getting myself a dog in the near future with a completely clear conscience.

See ya man, nice knowing you and good luck with everything :)

IAmAZoophile Canine 6 points on 2015-05-25 05:18:04

I think most zoos have reflected on whether or not their feelings are somehow inherently wrong or evil at some point.

As it turns out, just because society more or less universally agrees that any hint of a sexual relationship across species must be abuse or rape doesn't make having a loving an animal a little bit more than most people can wrong.

I'm sorry you feel the way you do, and I hope you get better. If you ever want to come back, I'm sure people'd be happy to see you again.

SunTzuSaidThat 5 points on 2015-05-25 05:29:06

Sad to see you go.

Keep in mind, though, that many folks here have spent much more time than mere minutes considering the ethics of their preference. My stress and my "guilt" regarding this life are not because I fail to understand my own circumstances. They are instead because, although I believe that I am right, I am afraid that I could be wrong. Everyone else tells me so, and it is impossible to stop listening to them entirely.

Do not confuse conscious belief for ignorance.

Tundrovyy-Volk Canidae 4 points on 2015-05-25 06:51:15

Farewell and godspeed. I wish you luck in whatever you find yourself doing. I have no doubt you've made up your mind, but you're always welcome here, should you choose to return someday.

Can we really know the truth about human-animal interactions? No. And even if we compile all evidence, be that biological or first hand, we cannot account for personal discontent. I respect you no less for your decision.

However, I consider the morality of zoophilia deeply and often, and have no intentions of ceasing to do so. I also have no intentions of withholding my actions with animals, as I have found no immorality thus far, but that is my journey, and you are on yours. Good luck, and thank you for your contributions to the community. You will be missed.

Yearningmice 7 points on 2015-05-25 13:43:58

It sounds like you are dealing with a porn addiction and blaming the content. There are lots of hetero and homosexuals who are also similarly addicted.

I will say this, until you come to a healthy relationship with your zoophilia, you are not going to be happy. I'm not sure what the solution will be for you but it is unlikely cutting it out from your life will end well. Cut the porno out though, most of us can do that without any repercussions whatsoever.

One more thing, the surest knowledge I've had for what is right and wrong was the experience of acting. I suspect you've not had an animal in your life? I am seeing this more and more around the net where people without experience have issues with, or problems about zoophilia. I'm not even talking about sex.

Good luck and might I suggest that you be very careful where your self-loathing leads you. Hate, for us, for yourself, and another raging anti-zoo is not something we need.

HeartBeatOfTheBeast Hoof and Claw 2 points on 2015-05-25 14:18:00

Sorry to have you leave. Remember though that not all porn is good, there is also a lot of bad human porn, as there is bad zoo porn.

Applejack_Apple Speakin' in fancy! 2 points on 2015-05-25 18:46:51

I can't say I have the hang-ups about zoo porn as you do, then again zoophilia has not affected my life negatively, at least not so far. I hope you are able to find what you are looking for in a zoophilia-free life.

However, suicidal thoughts are not healthy. You should see a therapist to talk about it. If therapists are not your thing, may I recommend occasional meditation. It's easy to do; just find a quiet place, sit down, close your eyes, and try to empty your mind of thoughts. It helps if you focus on your breathing. I believe once you achieve some level of inner peace, experiencing the world without prejudice or expectation, everything else will come naturally. It has helped me immensely. Meditation, and reading the Tao Te Ching and other eastern philosophy.

Best of luck.

wright-one ursidae canidae pantherinae 3 points on 2015-05-25 23:29:22

honestly, it sounds more like the obsession with the porn that's the problem, and i admit i'm rather OCD about image gathering, myself (not always porn; sometimes just the sort of thing i post for #SCS on /r/animalromance). i can understand a desire to waste less time on something like that, but zoophilia in general .. i hope you can make peace with it. there really is nothing wrong with it as long as you are conscientious about your partner's needs and desires (or lack thereof).

Rannoch2002 Deer Zoo 3 points on 2015-05-25 23:42:17

While I wish you well in finding yourself, and wish you only the best, this sentence got me:

"Nevertheless, I would ask you to consider, at least for a minute, the possibility that what we have been discussing on this subreddit is wrong."

I asked myself that every single day, in a way any "normal" heterosexual or even gay person could not even dream of. I ask it despite immense personal pain... Because I have to be certain. Anything less than certainity in this attraction is unacceptable. I've never once seen any valid evidence that it's harmful, and I have at least my time with Willow, my former doe lover, indicating directly that it is not only harmless, but can be BENEFICIAL to both parties...

I don't know how much more certain I could be.

No, maybe zoophilia isn't right for you. Maybe it would've even been harmful in your case. That's ok and I am proud of you for taking the high road. But be careful not to throw the attraction as a whole under the bus because it didn't work for you. The world is much more complicated than that... I just hope you remember that.

Peace man.

AlRubyx 1 point on 2015-06-06 05:22:07

I had "The guilt" Until my first experience. It all went away when I realized how obvious it is that they're enjoying themselves.

[deleted] 1 point on 2015-06-13 03:59:12

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