I've been there, or at least, somewhere similar.

Lie. Lie like hell. Tell them you're cured. Tell them you don't want to be that anymore. Lie for your own sake. You can't fix the past, but you can begin to build a future for yourself.

It sucks but it is what it is. Don't kill yourself though, that's not a way to make things better. It's just an end, and not a good one nor a solution to anything.

For the sake of you and your family Do Not Kill yourself.

Surely the situation seems to be desperate right now, but there could be a way to solve this.Could you come up with more info about your current status and environment, please?

How old are you and do you have a job to sustain an autonomous life without your parents´ financial support? Do you have friends who know about your sexuality and are tolerant/supportive?

What took place first, your coming out or your mother finding out? What exactly have you told your parents about your interests? How fierce was the reaction after your mother found out and what exactly happened when she did?

Please share this info with me, it´s vital for sorting out the possibilities you still have left. For example, if you can afford a autonomous life, then move out immediately. Since you already have made the mistake of telling too much, living with your parents will definitely be like living in the GDR before the collapse of the Iron Curtain...they will spy on you, no matter what. Even participating in an online zoo forum like this won´t go unnoticed for long and may lead to severe consequences like forcing you to undergo psychiatric treatment. If you have the chance of living your life independently, then I strongly recommend moving out rather than moving back to your parents. I assume that your dog was handed out to the shelter without going into detail about the reasons to do this too much, so it still would be possible for a supportive friend of yours to adopt your dog to ensure your partner isn´t lost forever. If one of your friends would adopt your dog until you´ve built up a life of your own without your parents´ supervision, the possibility of getting your partner back one day remains. Or you also could visit your friend to take out your partner for a walk once in a while until you´ve sorted out how to avoid any further interference from your parents.

Rannochs advice is truly sound...tell lies, tell your parents what they want to hear from you. Exactly that is why I don´t support this "I NEED to come out " attitude...as a zoo, this can backfire at you anytime. I´d rather live a closeted life with my partner although I understand the hardships of containing an essential part of your self for the rest of your life. Swallowing down the ego and biting your thumb each time is definitely better than regretting to come out to the wrong persons for the rest of your life, isn´t it?

Please provide more info about your situation and don´t be so desperate. It surely is hard ATM, but try to analyze your situation rationally instead of letting yourself being carried away by negative emotions. If you are willing to make some sacrifices, there might be a way to undo the damage already done.

Are you able to support yourself? I would leave my family and never look back if they did something like that! If not, lie through your teeth until you can.

But don't kill yourself, you will find love again eventually.

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Let me put it this way: if you kill yourself, you die at your lowest and most pathetic point, with no hope for a better life. Unless there is absolutely no possibility that things will get better, this is a foolish thing to do. I'd encourage you to separate yourself from your parents in a healthy way, if possible. Lie if you must, but it may be better simply not to talk about it with them and build yourself up until you can escape safely.

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You'll get through this. I did. I didn't come out, but they found out. I feel like I was in hell. I went to a counselor. The decision came to be for me to go to college.

I still have these feelings towards canines, but I don't have to share it with everyone. People are still racist and homophobic. Why do you think they will try this any different.

You need a life goal. Something to get you moving. Is it having your own place? Traveling somewhere? Helping someone?

If you kill yourself, they win. Don't do it. They hate when you are happy. Live your life. It's probably time to move out.

I'm sorry you lost your friend like that, I know it can be heart breaking.

Hang in there mate, soon enough I'm sure you be able to be moving into a place of your own.

Some things are best kept a secret even more so when it's something that's ilegal in most places.

Anyways here a quote I'v always enjoyed.

"It came to me that every time I lose a dog they take a piece of my heart with them, and every new dog who comes into my life gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough all the components of my heart will be dog, and I will become as generous and loving as they are"

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You are angry. Very angry. You are right to be angry. Learn about that anger. Then study about how to be true to that anger and every other feeling inside you without having to hurt yourself or others. This is a path to recovery.

You have nothing to be sorry for. Shame on others for not understanding.