Is there anyone here that hasn't had a difficult time accepting who they are? (self.zoophilia)
submitted 2017-02-13 14:43:46 by UntamedAnomaly
There seems to be a lot of threads here, as well as other zoo places where people post about coming to terms about who they are, and that they have struggled with it. I personally had no struggle with it at all. I think the only thing I can remotely label as struggle, is the constantly questioning of my morality, but that isn't specifically zoo related, that's just in general.
To me, discovering myself felt natural to me, there weren't any hesitations, or feelings of disgust with myself, or anything like that. I am wondering how many others went through their own discovery similarly.
In my case, I started to suspect my condition when I discovered that I had deep feelings for a mare that I met at a riding club. I was a bit confused, because that was not the way I was supposed to work like. One day, I masturbated thinking of her, and realized that zoophilia was for real in my case. Not only did I have deep love feelings for her, I found her sexually attractive too.
That was it. I moved on from there just like that. I knew that I was not built up as humans are expected to be, just like people who have minor birth defects that don't prevent them from being functional human beings.
I've never had any feelings of disgust, confusion, etc. either.
I mean... I had no reason to?
However, when I was witchhunted I only had my doubts and kind of lashed out at this community.
You know, I thought zoophilia wasn't as hated as it is and thought that way more people were zoos.
I don't know if this has anything to do with accepting yourself, but I'd rather be asexual if I could...
I get low occasionally, as anyone does who is on the fringe, but I've had this in my heart since a very young age. I'm proud of who I am.
Ever since I have discovered and accepted my sexual attraction, I have not once experienced feelings of shame, guilt or remorse about it. In fact, thinking about what being with horses has been giving me during the last few years, it has been quite the opposite. Dealing with my zoophile tendencies gave me the opportunity to develop a broader concept of love, emotional relationships and sexuality which differs in so many ways from what I found in women. After all, my views on animal ethics and animal rights were shaped by my emotional affection to female equines. Even my decision to adopt vegetarianism might be attributed to this shift in perspective. Thus, the actual benefits of my life as a zoophile outweigh the potential drawbacks by far. I don't even see how my deviant sexual orientation could have a negative impact on my life – at least as long as I stay committed to secrecy and rely on common sense in everything I do with my mare. Of course, this is just my personal experience as an inhabitant of a democratic, secular country and as a member of a family dedicated to liberalism, in which I feel respected regardless of my sexual orientation. I am perfectly aware that if I had grown up in a different social environment, take, for instance, a community of christian or muslim fundamentalists, my life might have taken a different turn. Thus, I am incredibly grateful to be able to get along with my sexual orientation without fear of prosecution or harassment.
I think this is really the key. Although nobody comes right out to say it, I get the feeling a lot of people here feel like there is a right or a wrong when it comes to degrees of self-comfort, of social self-sufficiency, etc., even going back to the age-old argument of gay people being closeted or "out." Sometimes one approach works, sometimes the other works, and it has a lot less to do with the individual and a lot more to do with the environment they must contend with.
Certainly I never felt any "feelings of disgust" in my situation but if one is introspective at all, it seems almost mandatory to question oneself upon first thinking maybe they have interests that are unusual, or more to the point in the case here, possibly even illegal... all the more so if they choose to act on those interests and/or are limited to doing so in a less-than-ideal situation (living at home with parents or siblings, roommates, etc.) or in some cases being prevented by circumstances and not being able to relate their feelings to any in-person support network.
Nope.
Other people have had issues with it of course, and projected their issues onto me, to say the least.
I didn't have trouble. Didn't see anything wrong with it. I was very surprised seeing other people's reactions to it, though.
I often say that everybody but me have a problem with my sexuality.
Yes, it is their problem. However, their problem is like AIDS. Sometimes they intrude and stick their self-righteous penis in our sexualities ass and then it becomes a big problem for us.
I'm happy with who I am and what my interests are. It's a little less comforting knowing that most of my families expectations probably aren't going to happen, but society hasn't made me feel insecure or ashamed about loving an animal.
I've never had a difficult time accepting my attractions.
I only have a difficult time accepting people who abuse my sexuality as some method to boost their own fragile self esteem. Those kinds of people are dangerous. I cannot relate to them. Breathing the same air as them makes me feel sick so I foresee my own medical emergency on the horizon.
About 2 years ago, i was dogsitting a dog who had given birth to puppies, and then i realized I was having weird feelings around the dog. And well, I basically had a mental breakdown. Lasted one hour, and the rest of the day I basically beat myself up mentally.
Next day i had come to terms with it. Knowing how I reacted, i know alot of people can take it waaaaaaay worse.
I was ALWAYS attached to dogs more than people. Of course at an early age there was no sexuality about it. Only later did that come in.
My first erotic thought (I can't really call it "sexual") was when I was five or six and it related to rubbing against the fur of my Samoyed.
As I grew older, the feeling DID become sexual. But I was raised in a VERY religious household and of course "bought into" all of that crap I was raised with. So, unlike many other zoos I have met over the decades, I resisted the urge to actually act on those attractions......well, maybe except for masturbating to pictures I'd cut from magazines showing a dog's tail raised here or a bitch on her back there. And of course there'd be HUGE amounts of guilt which needed to be absolved later every time. Yes, when I was a pup it was WAY WAY WAY before the internet! ;)
There is a long story involved, which I won't go in to here. But I will just say that until I made love with a bitch the first time when I was 21 (and sadly I cannot say that I lost my virginity to her since a woman was my first lover), I DID have a very difficult time accepting who I was. But Heidi (who was a GSD) and our relationship changed that for me and now almost 35 years later I have never been happier and more comfortable with who who I am.
I am a zoo (hetero) exclusive. I "came out" to all of my close friends and family years ago too, and have been accepted by them all. I know others here could relate a much different viewpoint. But I believe that to be TRULY comfortable with who you are, being open about who you are to those trusted people you love needs to happen at some point. It took a while to realize that trying to be "normal" wasn't ever the way to my happiness, but once I accepted my feelings and attractions as REAL (with Heidi's help), I have never second guessed or looked back, OR regretted my lifestyle and who I am and what I do for a living......and I bet you can guess generally what that is ;)
Hah, I had a Samoyed too, but sadly not for long. The owner was trying to pawn a already sick and dying dog off on a little kid (me), so they didn't have to deal with it. He had parvo unfortunately. At least I treated that dog better in it's last couple of weeks, than the owners probably treated it. Who the fuck gives a 9 yo. a dog they know is dying?
Parvo is not a fun disease to treat (the massive diarrhea is the only ONE of the horrible things as you know). So, they wanted that dog out of their lives and probably would have dumped him on the side of the road if you weren't there to "dump" him on. So.......I'd consider it a privilege to be able to make his last days better than dying along a roadside. To HELL with those weak people who couldn't be bothered with the well being of another life.
Unfortunately that's usually impossible for most people to achieve, thus many of the troubles we hear about. But I am truly glad the coming out experience worked for you.
I don't have a problem accepting myself; it is not morally wrong to be sexually attracted to non-humans. And one should not feel shame or guilt because their sexual attraction to non-humans. What I do have a problem with are the growing number of oppressive anti-zoo laws (especially in the U.S.), and mainstream society's irrational hatred of zoo and their "disgust". I wish there's wasn't so much stigma and taboo associated with zoo, and that people were more tolerant of it.
You can't blame them (actually you can). Real sex offenders are in short stock, so the parasites have to make up for their failing stigma-economics by making sex offenders out of regular people.
You know how it goes... If theyre short on inventory, they will make more!
See. It's not so much about oppression and the personal beliefs of the anti-zoos as much as theyre harvesting humanity for all it's worth. Parasites make a bad habit of sucking your love and you're life-force dry.
IMO, parasites should be poisoned. That's usually the best medically applicable approach, other than cutting them out with a blade.
Well, maybe not "regular people" but yeah. I have a similar theory, in that the real press for explicit anti-zoo legislation (that which has nothing to do with actual abuse, but simply an act) happens to have gained momentum not even so much around the Enumclaw incident, but rather with the expansion of gay rights/marriage.
I suspect there's just some aspect of human nature where people crave a certain number of pariahs.