sorry to hear about that. Is this not exactly the type of thing therapy is for? I wasn't really introduced to zoophilia so much that I searched around to see if loving animals as equal beings was even a thing.

As a child I was never once exposed to erotica, but I watched Attenborough's nature documentaries. So footage of mating animals was the only sexual imagery I knew. At age 12 when libido suddenly became a thing, my sexual fantasies all consisted of imagining myself as a male animal of some kind.

Long story short, I fell in love with a black labrador as a teenager, googled what I was thinking about, and found the word for it.

Growing up I quickly discovered that I found horses and other critters to be FAR more sexually appealing than my own species... I also happened to meet a very lovely mare who was in standing heat and quite demanding. She was a pretty incredible teacher.

I was pretty much obsessed with animals and unable to really make a deep connection to humans from the get go. I grew up on a small farm, and I used to hand feed wild animals. I've also have always been highly sexual, I remember masturbating way back when I was just 3 years old. I didn't experiment with an animal until I was 8 though, and even then it wasn't even sexual for me..it was more like I saw my dog's penis popping out and I had never noticed such a thing before, and so I decided to touch it and became fascinated with how it grew in my hand and whatknot. The dog seemed to want to hang around me more often than before, so I figured I'd keep doing it. It wasn't until I was 14 that I had my 1st self-sexual experience with my dog who was very eager to perform oral on me. I didn't even know what my attraction was until I stumbled across communities on the internet in my late teens. That was about 14 years ago, I used to be very active in the community under a different name, I used to run blogs and make zoo related art and political stuff. But nowadays, I'm just kind of flying under the radar and just trying to live life while I can. I have a feeling shit is about to hit the fan politically.

I was always attracted to animals over people. I thought I would eventually start finding people attraction but nope. At age 18 is when I learned to term Zoophilia and I just embraced it.

When I was younger I was sodomized and forced to have intercourse with a male dog at around age 12 by my older foster brother

Damn dude that's pretty harsh, like seriously even if you have embraced your interests, you seriously should see someone about that.

Anyways, regarding your question, when I was about 15 years old I became more sexually aware. I had spent a bit of time around horses in the past and at some point I realized that I found horses attractive and humans no so much. Not much to be said there... one day I looked up what the attraction to animals is called and that eventually lead me here...

I wanted to make a 3D model of crocodile once. Mesh was pretty good I think, for beginner of course, but texturing... It's still too hard for me. Anyway, while searching for references I found out that one url was redundant. That's how I got to herpy. First reaction was "uh, no". But I somehow could not resist getting back there. After almost a year disgust gone, after another I finally admitted who I am and started research about it because of curiosity, why exactly we are bad. Month later all doubts vanished. So basically it took me a little bit more than 2 years.

Sorry to hear of your circumstances, not sure how long ago that was but at least it sounds like you've moved on a little. Also I assume you mean "unable to feel a normal feeling towards a human man" too.

If it's not too personal, I would be very interested to hear how you think an experience such as yours might impact how you think about people, animals, or sex, and how this impacts your interests one way or another. PM if preferred, or of course just ignore the question if it's too much. I'm a bit surprised you wouldn't be traumatized towards dogs or sex entirely.

My story is nowhere near as colorful. I had an unremarkable middle-class upbringing in the suburbs, miles away from any of the animals I'm interested in, and before the internet was really mainstream, and I was not really interested in anything sexual at all. All I can say is that I just knew, first that they were beautiful animals, later that they were beautiful animals I loved to stare at, and eventually that they were beautiful animals I felt attracted to. I don't really know a better way to say it.

While I have serious problems to put any belief in your confession of how you "got into zoophilia" above and can only think of a very rare and weird kind of Stockholm syndrome to explain such a twisted curriculum vitae, I´d leave it at that and turn towards you question.

I never was "introduced" to zoophilia by anyone or anything. As long as I can remember, I always was "this way". I never developed any interest in humans or in other species except horses. It all came quite "naturally", to put it that way. When I was at the age of 14/15, I started to wonder why all my classmates suddenly were drawn to the opposite sex (well, some to the same as well....) but I had hard times to understand what they see in girls. It never was an option for me, it felt wrong to me. In my teenage years, there was no internet, so the available info about my unusual attraction to female horses made me visit university libraries for research and that was the first time I stumbled across the now outdated German word "Sodomie" for acts of bestiality in one of Sigmund Freud´s many books. Although I wouldn´t say that this was some kind of an epiphany or an "introduction" for me in any way, having a word for something I couldn´t fully understand back then was kind of calming and relaxing. The existence of a word for it, regardless of what this word was, got me out of the illusion I was the only one with this "illness". Soon, I intensified my research and in the year ´88, at the age of 16, I skimmed through von Krafft-Ebing´s book "psychopathia sexualis"...and there it was, the z-word. Krafft-Ebing´s definition was a little off compared to what I felt in myself, but as a pupil of a school that focused on Latin and ancient Greek language as part of humanistic education, I dissected the z-word into its Greek roots and found it to be a pretty damn accurate word for what I was feeling inside.

Some months before that experience and my first discovery of the z-word, the pressure that built up in me had led me to the point of no return: should I gather all my courage and sing in to a riding club to be with what I was desiring so much? Luckily, I did and found out very quickly that this decision probably was the best one I have made my entire life, not continuing to try and contain my "abnormal" feelings , at least trying to have some contact with what my heart (and crotch) craved for so much.

What comes nearest to an actual "introduction" to zoophilia was my very first time with a mare. After that experience, I knew that it was exactly this what i was born for. I t wasn´t the sex itself, but the eerie spontaneous "familiarity" with the whole situation it felt like I was doing it for ages even the first time, the enormous feelings I had developed for this mare in a very short time. I actually felt love for her before I actually slept with her. It all felt so goddamn right, all pieces of the puzzle seemed to have fallen into their righteous places with this. When I stood by her, hugging her after my "defloration", I had some kind of epiphany and knew there would be nothing else for me but mares until the day I die. All paths for my life set, all questions answered. Even without the z-word being established as the word for having an erotic/emotional/sexual fixation towards animals as it is today, I knew what I was deep inside of myself. It additionally took a few years , until the beginning of the nineties when the z-word became what it is today, for me to call myself a zoophile, but that only was the missing label on an already filled jar.

This beautiful and gentle Arab-Haflinger mare hasn´t "made me into a zoo", hasn´t "introduced me into zoophilia", that was present from the very beginning of my life, I guess; but she gave me the certainty of what I was.

Excuse me?
Introduced to zoophilia?

...What? It's not something I saw and then chose to have.
It's not even a decision.

Why did this thread just take a shit all of a sudden ffs. People need to calm the hell down lol

I went "bat-shit aggressive" because your trying to tell me my own experience is false. You wouldn't go up to a child who was molested and tell her that's she's lying would you? That's fucking outrageous to even think of doing something like that. The rest of the people here have been kind and answered the simple question that I asked them and I came here looking for people who might have also experienced the same situation I did. If I wanted to make what happened to me a "fantasy" as you call it, I could have gone in great detail to give myself something to JO too. But believe what you want lol, you don't know me home boy. <3

I just hope the rest of the zoophiles in this community aren't as close minded and ignorant as you, my friend.

It just sorta happened.

Well, this one time when I was like 14 I tripped and fell onto an erect dog dick and instantly everything just clicked.

Ive always really liked animals, more than just "theyre adorable/cool", they were my favorite thing in my life. My memory is pretty shitty, but at some point i learned that dogs mated to show love, and well i loved my dog, so i gave it a shot. I had no idea it was called beastiality (though i was pretty sure there were other people like me) until i found a porn website about it. But honestly it just made me feel more alone than before, because it was pretty obvious that there was no love in that porn, and the animals were just a fetish device. They didnt love animals, they loved sex. I thought "zoophilia" was just the Spanish word for it or something until i found a zoophile forum years later. I never participated because i was scared someone will find me out. I cut out a lot of the finer (and sadder) details here for tl;dr sake

My friend and I found some videos of women being fucked by dogs when were teenagers. He thought he was just gross and hilarious... I found it arousing. Been looking at porn and fantasizing ever since.

Have acted on it once, with the same friend's dog after confessing my feelings about it to him. He didn't mind if the dog didn't mind, and the dog was always trying to hump me whenever I came over, including when I serviced him so I'm pretty sure he didn't mind.

He didn't penetrate me, but I sucked his cock until he turned around and, I assume, came before going flaccid. Wanted to do more or the same ever since and never could. Also after that, simply being in the room with the dog would make me jizz in my pants.

It was just a BJ but it was better than I ever imagined. And now I am curious about the other animal fantasies I have and if they would be just as fulfilling.